How much do you really know the person you're spending so much time with? Have you taken the time to learn about them? Have you put in the effort to understand them? You don't have to agree with them but at least see things from their side. I don't want to figure you out, I want to get to know you on a deeper level. Love you.

Live you.

Forever.

Forever is all the time we need to make this never ending journey. From the day that we met, I knew that I needed you more than anything. I needed you more than anyone else. I knew that I was willing to spend the rest of my life improving our relationship. No detail too minuscule. No situation too complex.

We've shared early morning dreams and late night goals. This was our thing. We were inseparable then and we still are now. Just the thought of how far we've come makes me smile. A little piece of my tattered heart regenerates with each moment we share. The same heart that has been crushed, ripped, smashed, taped up and sent on its way still has hope. This is nothing short of true happiness. A feeling of euphoria. Dopamine shoots through my veins with each step that we take together. This was meant to be. Not a soul has come close to delivering or recreating the feeling that you give me. No one has made sense of my being misunderstood. There is no bond like ours. I'd put my life on that.

So from this day on, I vow to be a better person to you. I vow to be a better person to the most important person in my life - myself. When you love yourself, it's so much easier to see those around you for who they are instead of who you want them to be. It's hard to shortchange yourself when you're in love with you. It's hard to let negativity around you when you know how pricelss you are. So I vow to be free of judgement. I vow to be realistic. I vow to never spoon feed myself shit covered in sugar. I vow to never accept wooden nickels or any love less than what I put out.

To you, I vow...

Have you ever been mentally fucked? If not, I must say, it's an unexplainable feeling. Something you feel deep within. Something that you can't duplicate. You FEEL it with every sense. You FEEL it in every part of you. 

When you experience the mental before the physical, it's almost ineffable. How can a person do that to you? Either you'll be scared out of your mind, or you'll be taken to ecstasy. Taken to a place that you never thought existed & never imagined visiting. Taken to euphoria. And the moment you get there, you'll never want to leave. Never settle for anything less. Never tolerate mediocrity. 

When you feel it, you'll never want to feel any other way. 

Mind fucked. 

Brain banged.  

Cerebral smashed. 

Each conversation goes deeper and deeper. Increasing in intensity with every answered call, every read text. Each spoken word feels like they're laying you down gently on your back. The dialogue spreads your legs and pulls your hips down. As they enter, You let out that first contact deep breath. The first stroke sets the tone. The pace quickens. Your breathing is all out of whack. But that's ok because your bodies are in sync. You bite your lip. Your eyes roll back. You try to escape, but it feels too good to end it this early. Loosen up & enjoy it. You open up a little wider. They can see that you're into it, that you want it, that your body is responding. Before you can realize all that's happening, you notice that you've switched positions three times. It just keeps getting better. Neither one of you is letting up. Going tit for tat. Blow for blow. Stroke for stroke. We know where this is going. The grunts become louder. The light moans become mild screams. The both of you are ready. Neither of you can fight it any longer. 

Reaching for the stars just gained a new meaning. This place seems familiar yet new. You've never had it like THIS. You win & do a victory lap. You've earned it. You deserved this. 

Nobody can take that from you. 

You sit back and smirk. 

So while you're thinking back on the past and wondering if you've ever felt anything this good, this real, just laughs and roll over. This nap is going to be good. Those who are capable of mind fucking us are rare. Enjoy it while it's here. 

Preparing For Round 2